A little about my journey with my body and eating habits...
Ever since I can remember I have been involved with dance and sports. Worrying about what I ate RARELY came into play. I was always on the move. Going to this practice and that. Going to this performance, that track meet or swim meet.
When I got to college, I had a bit of a reality check. Mac N' Cheese every night. Bagel bites. The weight started to pack on quickly the first semester. Luckily, I had a wonderful roommate and health freak who whipped us back into shape. She was always a role model for me when it came it eating. Throughout the rest of college I had more and more health nuts come into my life. I was always aware of what I was eating and "trying" to eat healthy. Again, I was always on the move with dance team and exercising with my roomies.
After college I moved into an apartment with my boyfriend (now husband) and let myself gooooooo. I am a comfort food freak. I love pizza, pasta, casseroles..pretty much anything that's warm with cheese and carbs! I was new to cooking for two. Like my mother...I cook for an army! We would just eat until uncomfortably full. I started to notice my pants getting a little tighter so I thought I'd do something about it. I started working out normally again and started counting calories. I became obsessive with counting. It did help and I did lose weight, but I got burnt out very quickly. I gave up. As you continue to read...you will see this phrase a lot. "I gave up." Again, starting eating whatever I wanted, ran here and there. And again, my pants got tighter and so I thought I'd take a different route. I wanted to try the Advocare 24 Day Challenge. I had heard so many great things about people losing weight, inches, feeling so much better energy wise. I conned my husband into it and he was all aboard. We were all in. Did so well for about 14-15 days. Then caved. Got pizza and all went downhill. I gave up.
The pattern continued... for the next couple of years. I always found the next fad diet and tried it and gave up. Don't get me wrong...I am VERY knowledgable when it comes to food and eating. I've educating myself a lot! I just have no self control. No commitment to changing myself. I always try for a couple of weeks and fail..Give up....
Fast forward to today... The last few months I haven't even wanted to take pictures because I was really noticing the weight I'd gained.
There was a final straw. These two pictures....
These pictures are normal everyday pictures (Minnie was Halloween). But to me... these pictures both showed how much I had gained and I couldn't stop thinking about how unhappy I felt looking at them.
A friend asked me a couple months ago if I wanted to do a 24 Day Challenge and I said no because I was just starting an 8 week challenge at Kosama. Well, after 8 weeks at Kosama with great workouts and crappy eating I gained weight..yet again. On Sunday I sat down and began my meal planning for the week (yes, I plan out meals...do I always follow through? Absolutely not..that's why I'm in this situation). I kind of started to break down. Thinking about all the things I had done and gave up on...every. single. time. I thought about the friend who asked me to do the 24DC and thought I'd just text her about it. It just so happened that she was starting a group challenge the next day. After much thought I decided I wanted to do it. BUT, in the back of my mind I just kept thinking about how long I'd do it this time until I failed. I NEEDED some way of being accountable. I asked my mom if she would help me..of course she said yes. I asked my husband if he would help me..of course he said yes. Yet, I kept thinking..they both have helped me before and I have failed time after time. This time was going to be different. I told them both they had to help me be ACCOUNTABLE..that means being my cheerleader, support system and punisher to make me feel guilty if I start wavering from the plan.
This time it is going to be different! I decided not only do I want my family supporting me and encouraging me, but I am going to let all the people in my life know. That way no matter where I am, I have someone who is there to support me and help me!! That is why I started this blog. I have somewhere to put my thoughts and share it with everyone that is going on this journey with me! Thank you for taking a look and I hope you come back to read about how my journey is going!!!
P.S. I promise not every post will be a novel like this one :)
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